Once again, we come back to the theme of community. Iori tries to be the hero. She tries to do everything by herself. And she can’t.
But once again, Iori is ahead of the game. She actually asks for help. No one else has done this so far.
I’ve already discussed community in Kokoro Connect at length, so I’ll breeze over the first half of this episode since it mainly reiterated these earlier points.
In the second half of the episode, Heartseed makes an interesting proposition to Iori: she has the opportunity to start over and redo part of her life.
Earlier, Iori had been worrying that she’d made the wrong choices in her life. If she had done something different as a child, her mother would have been happier. If she could be her “true self”, whatever that means, things would have turned out differently.
But when given the choice, Iori makes the decision not to redo anything. She comes to accept her choices and to accept herself, whether her choices were wrong or false or true or not: they were still her choices. If anything defines Iori’s “true self”, it’s the choices she made.
This idea is quite similar to Camus’ take on choices:
“I had been right I was still right I was always right. I had lived my life one way and I could just as well lived it another. I had done this and I hadn t done that. I hadn t done this thing and I had done another. And so? ” — The Stranger, Albert Camus
For Camus, the problem isn’t what choice you make so much as accepting those choices and their consequences. Your choices are what define you.
The most interesting part of this whole discussion, however, was Heartseed’s reaction:
For a guy who’s so expressionless and dead, I think this smile reveals more than anything he’s said so far. Again, I can’t bring myself to see Heartseed as evil or even as a troll. With this smile, I think we can see that he’s proud of Iori’s choice.
Now, I said earlier that Iori was ahead of the game in respect to living in community. But she still has a way to go too. She hasn’t even talked to her mother about this before? It turns out her mother was letting this guy back in the house to try to make Iori happy.